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September 12th, 2005

12:47 pm - "Lost in your eyes shallow replies" -Anberlin Just so everyone knows, I've temporarily started updating my xanga in place of my lj. I'll switch back sometime. www.xanga.com/jenovaa_jeb Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: Anberlin: Blueprints for the Blackmarket

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August 26th, 2005

11:55 pm Well. Tonight was pretty spectacular. I went to Mason with Noah and Akins. I miss Akins already. It has been so nice having him live two minutes from my house. Good man. He's gonna come up a lot on weekends this year and we're gonna skate the indoor modern park. The skating was quite good tonight. It didn't take too long and I was back into the swing of things. I hadn't seriously skated in about a month, but somehow I wasn't too bad. Tomorrow I'm going to Sam-Wise Wieland's house to spend the night. Good times will be had, I'm sure. take it easy, everyone. love. Current Mood: awesome Current Music: julianna theory: love

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August 25th, 2005

11:41 am - "He loves you? Who loves you more? To let you go" - the starting line Dude, I bought 'a lot like love'. It's my current favorite movie. I love it so much. Ashton Kutcher is amazing, and the girl in the movie is incredible. They work together so well and it's absolutely awesome. Go watch it if you haven't. It made me feel very happy :). Current Mood: good Current Music: the starting line- say it like you mean it

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August 23rd, 2005

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August 21st, 2005

10:50 pm - "the sky it burns bright with your presence tonight" rufio. I finally did it... I cut off all of the hair I've been growing this summer. I didn't have to do it for another couple weeks, but I was in the bathroom and saw a pair of scissors... and the rest is history :D. Besides, it's fun to give yourself haircuts. I've been running into a lot of people I haven't seen for awhile. Libby drove by the other day and pulled over. I got to talk to her for a little bit, which was awesome cause I don't get to see her very often. I saw Ally Kramer at American Eagle the other day too. She's a pretty sweet girl. Seems she's leaving for UofM. David and Erin Riley came over for about 45 minutes, which was sweet. Anyways, it was good to see all of them cause who knows when the next time I cross paths with them will be. I haven't had a good skate day in like... 3 or 4 weeks now. that's nuts. I'm going with Akins on Tuesday I think. Gonna hit up Mason. A couple weeks ago I stopped by for about 10 minutes, but I was quite sketchy. I'm gonna have to get back into the flow. Things are going pretty good. I've been hanging out with Jais and Stephen lately. Watching movies and such. I know everyone has probably seen it but Guess Who is hilarious. I like Ashton Kutcher a lot too, so that makes it even better. Jais and I are going to Chicago tomorrow. He's doing modelling stuff and then we're hanging out for a bit. I've really been appreciating his friendship lately. We work together very well. It's impossible to hang out with him for more than 5 minutes without laughing your head off. Good kid. Current Mood: okay Current Music: Rufio: Perhaps...I suppose.

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August 20th, 2005

11:25 am - "if you go and leave me down here on my own, than I'll wait for you" coldplay Mars was so cool last night. Absolutely beautiful. Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: coldplay

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August 13th, 2005

11:14 am - "Were it not for hearts like mine, calloused thickly, you could fall. don't u dare slow down for me" ..(copeland).. Hmmmm. This last week has been really busy. All of the things I wrote about have kept me going at a pretty crazy pace. I needed it though. I've been able to spend a lot of time with some dear friends who I haven't spent a lot of time with lately. The Chicago trip was really awesome. I bought a sweater from bananna republic. It was $60.00, but I really like it a lot. I never spend lots of money on clothes either, so it was all right. The best part was simply spending time with Michael, and Beth Ann and Steph were fun too. The next day Michael and I did my senior pictures. I'm sooo happy with them! They turned out really sweet. Thursday was Cedar Point. I got to spend time much overdue with my dearest cousins. We rode just about everything. Other than that... I'm really not looking forward to school starting, but I know it's coming. I just can't believe my summer is over. It doesn't feel like I've had it. I need to get more psyched for school: It's not gonna be too bad. I'll have a good time seeing everyone on a regular basis. The work will probably do me good. Right now though, i d rather take a year off from school and just work. I know I can't really do that though. School is so much more stressful to me than regular work though. I'm not sure why. It's probably because when I'm doing school I wish I could be working so I could be making money. I'm sick of money being such a big issue. I also have this big time desire to be totally independent and on my own. Living off my own efforts. I guess what I really want is to be a "man". Of course, it's probably coming faster than I think. I'm glad I've only got another year of high school. Looking back I wish I had gotten myself a year ahead somehow. I suppose God has me here for a reason though. Speaking of God... He's been pretty mean lately, but I've deserved it. You can't ignore what he commands too long without him lifting his blessing and protection atleast a little. Being a typical human of course, it worked. I'm taking him seriously again. I've realized in the past few weeks just how evil I really am underneath it all. I don't want to be like that, but I am. And when things are hard it seems to show through worse than ever. I hope that in heaven we are made like Christ. That we can finally feel free from this never ending struggle against our flesh. It seems to me that life is just suppressing our Self. But again, that's the wrong attitude... I'm looking too much at my inability instead of God's ability to work through me. I can walk on water when I don't look at the crashing waves around me and simply look to him. On a happier note... Coldplay is coming to the DTE on the 30th. I'm definitely hoping to go. I <3 colplay. Current Mood: drained Current Music: coldplay: parachutes.

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August 7th, 2005

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July 23rd, 2005

03:31 pm - "I'll sing along the whole day through- just do your best to hear me- it's all you can do" (Copeland quote above) Last night I went to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory again with my sibling's and the Morgan crew. It was fun. It's hilarious watching movies/doing anything with Stephanie because she psycho-analyzes everything. hehe. It's quite hilarious ;). ... Today we've been working insanely on our house. We have to get everything completely perfect cause tomorrow we're having an open-house thing for potential buyers to come check it out. We're beginning the moving process a week from today. Crazy. ... I rented Constantine and watched it again (I saw it in the theatre). It's a really good movie. Highly entertaining and it's shocking how close it is to the truth (except, of course, for the extra stuff they throw in there to make it more interesting). One thing I didn't like was that they gave a clear and intense look at the demonic world, but the only thing we saw of the heavenly side is the half-breed angel, Gabriel. Thankfully, towards the end they show God's power in an indirect way, and more importantly they show that his strength surpasses Lucifer's. The other thing I didn't really appreciate was the idea that a mere man, Jon Constantine, has so much control over demons. Of course, it's really "cool", but truthfully, the only power a human can have over the demonic world is through Christ. It is hollywood though, and they're trying to entertain, so I'm not gonna complain too much. Good movie. ... I'm pretty sure I'm going to Cedar Point on Wednesday with Sam and Autumn. That'll be sweet. Current Mood: silly Current Music: copeland: in motion

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July 20th, 2005

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July 18th, 2005

10:45 am Your Power Color Is Teal At Your Highest: You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future. At Your Lowest: You feel in a slump and lack creativity. In Love: You tend to be many people's ideal partner. How You're Attractive: You make people feel confident and accepted. Your Eternal Question: "What Impression Am I Giving?" What's Your Power Color?

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July 17th, 2005

01:21 am - "It starts again. Can you feel it? It takes your breath away. Stop saying that we're invincible"- (above quote by underoath) Today was pretty sweet. Emily's open house was today. I was there with my sibling's from 5:00 to 12:00. Alex was there! I hadn't seen her since t.w. got out. Seeing her was definitely overdue. thanks for the "date" ;). I went on a walk with Steven and had a good theological conversation. I really like to listen to people's ideas, and he has definitely got some good ones. When everyone started leaving we busted out the boombox and danced in their driveway, which was sweet. Then we all sat on the trampoline talking. I'll tell you... I love my cousin's so much. They're pretty rocking. "Say 'goodnight' means 'goodbye'" -tguk Current Mood: grateful Current Music: anberlin: never take friendship personal

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July 16th, 2005

12:02 am - "I don't want to be by your side... something isn't right"- Anberlin My two new favorite band are Anberlin ( www.purevolume.com/anberlin ) and Underoath. Definitely some good stuff here. I'm getting back into the post-hardcore music that I've put on my shelf for awhile. Tonight Akins and I went to Mason. He almost died. Seriously. It was so scary. He decided to drop in on the 9 footer, but messed up on the way down. He smacked his head SO hard. Thankfully he was wearing a helmet (which he NEVER does). He hit the back of his head so hard that his nose started bleeding! It was nuts. I'm really getting sick of annoying people at the parks. The mouthy little kids are the worst. There were these 4 really annoying girls too. I'm telling you... There is nothing less attractive than a girl who cusses. It's so trashy. For some reason it doesn't bother me as much when non-christian guys do it, but it is so un-feminine and completely gross when girls do it... But anyways, they just kept talking and were really driving me nuts. Hehe. Besides my big peeves about tonight's skating, it was really good. I was going faster than I ever have, which is nice. JAY: Where are you, man? I haven't heard from you in like over a week! Are you still out there somewhere? ... It's funny. My life hasn't been too fast lately, but it feels like it. I almost feel over-whelmed, but then I sit back and think about what I'm actually doing... and it shouldn't be stressful at all. Just hanging out with people and work. That's not too bad.... I am moving in two weeks though. That's nuts. We're doing it on the 30th and 31st. I'm just holding on and trying to take everything as well as I can. Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: Anberlin: Never Take Friendship Personal

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July 15th, 2005

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July 3rd, 2005

01:18 am - "There are things you'll never know: Secrets saved inside my summer" yours truly I'm going to G.R. tomorrow (today, Sunday) to check out some church. Them I'm hanging at lk. michigan with my fam for the rest of the day. heck yes. Have a good night, and a wonderful day. "everyone should have the chance to walk on a beach- to chase a breeze and feel the sand underneath their feet. The chance to be in a band, or drive a car that's going to fast. To fall in love for the first time, and die together when they get old- they'll never get old" -something for stephen Current Mood: good Current Music: something for stephen: run... you'll get there faster

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July 2nd, 2005

12:27 pm Last night was quite amazing. Jais and I went to "david's house" ;) and chilled with him all night. We jumped on the trampoline, set off fireworks, talked about girls. Just like old times :D. We watched Win A Date with Tad Hamilton and Hitch. Both movies are incredibly awesome. I can't believe I didn't like 'win a date' the first time I saw it. I was on the edge of my seat this time. The stars were more gorgeous last night than I think I've ever seen them. At 3:00 a.m. David went to bed and Jais was watching t.v. so I went for a walk/jog down the really dark country roads. I got down to Erin's house and just sat in her yard for awhile. I did a lot of praying last night, and I needed that. The Bible say's "My sheep hear my voice". I want to learn to hear the voice of God. So many times I feel that he's speaking but I'm so unsure of everything that I can't be positive. It's funny though... It has felt like, for some time now, that He's been telling me something, and last night I finally decided that I would follow His leading, and trust that He is in control. Afterall... If He can put those stars in the sky that I was admiring all night, he can take care of my little life. His arm is not too short to take care of me. Current Mood: restless

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July 1st, 2005

12:47 am - Coldplay... ahh. This is my favorite coldplay song ever. I've listened to it so many times these past few days. If you don't have the cd, get it, and listen to this song over and over. It's beautiful... ... When you try your best but you don't succeed When you get what you want but not what you need When you feel so tired but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse When the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone but it goes to waste could it be worse? Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones And I will try to fix you High up above or down below when your too in love to let it go If you never try you'll never know Just what your worth Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones And I will try to fix you Tears streaming down your face When you lose something you cannot replace Tears streaming down your face and I Tears streaming down your face I promise you I will learn from my mistakes Tears stream down your face and I Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you Current Mood: okay Current Music: coldplay

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June 30th, 2005

01:04 am - "When you try your best but you don't succeed. When you get what you want but not what you need" c.p I felt pretty crappy today, so I decided to go skating. We had an awesome session at Frandor. Akins, Jay, Noah, Geoff, and myself. So wonderful. I love those guys so much. I'm telling you... Akins is one of the best guys in the world. I still wasn't feeling too hot at the park, and was just kinda've skating lazy/sitting on the bench (hehe), so he went and filled up a bottle of water for me and got me laughing. Good man. I don't know how I'll live without him when I move. Skating with him and Jay is the best thing ever. Until tonight, I hadn't realized... I really don't want to move. I like my life the way it is, and since I've only got one more year at home, I wish I could just live it out here. In the town that I've lived in my whole life, and truly love. The fact that I can walk down the street and everyone I see is a familiar face. It's just nice. And I didn't realize I was going to miss it until I realized I was going to lose it. Anyways. As you can see, I've been thinking a lot, which isn't usually a good thing for me cause all I do is agonize over things I can't control. Why is it so hard for me to roll with the punches? I guess I'm just not as easy going as I had hoped. So it is... One thing that's nice. I have been a lot more open with people lately. Usually I just keep everything inside and don't let anyone know. I feel so much better when I tell people and they can help me. It's amazing how many people do care if you just trust them enough to let them help. ... On a lighter note, I bought an Usher cd! Yeah! That's right. I'm so excited. This is the first cd I've bought that hasn't been indie/emo/rock in years. Tonight I'm just gonna stay up for like 3 or 4 hours and listen to music. It sounds so wonderful. Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: coldplay, julianna theory, usher, dashboard, everything

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